Persevering Through Spiritual Darkness
By A. Taber
Bro. Smith: I have been a reader of the Review for nearly six years. It has always been a welcome visitor. Soon after I commenced reading it I began to fall in with the reasoning there held forth, until I am now a firm believer in the soon coming of our Saviour. I feel that I ought by this time to have made great proficiency in the cause, and gained much towards that perfection necessary for the true people of God in these last days; but alas, how is it? I feel a great lack on my part in coming up to the privileges of a true child of God. I come so far short of feeling that peace, joy and comfort, and being so sensibly encircled by that pure light from heaven which many feel, that I am almost inclined to consider myself a castaway. I know that I believe the promises of God as far as I understand them, and that he will fulfill his promises in every instance. I understand that these promises are all on conditions, and my desire and determination is to comply with the conditions; yet when I come to the throne of grace, instead of coming boldly as recommended by Paul, a lack of faith or confidence makes me timorous, and I am often led to ask, Why is it so? But notwithstanding the darkness that enshrouds me at present, I am determined to persevere, and try to make a full sacrifice and be wholly sanctified to God. Still hoping to win the crown.